this time

is a gift from God.

all of it.

thank You.

Savior King

And now the weak say I have strength
By the spirit of power that raised Christ from the dead
And now the poor stand and confess
That my portion is and I’m more blessed

Let now our hearts burn with a flame
A fire consuming all for Your Son’s holy name
And with the heavens we declare
You are our King

We love You, Lord, we worship You
You are our God, You alone are good

You asked Your Son to carry this
The heavy cross our weight of sin

I love You, Lord, I worship You
Hope which was lost, now stands renewed
I give my life to honor this
The love of Christ, the Savior King

I give my life to honor this
The love of Christ, the Savior King

Lyrics (edited)

On another note… I found out last night that Paul’s father passed away a few weeks ago. I found his obituary (James Estus Davis) today. Today Kimberly got married. Jan also got married today. It was senior takeover at Large Group today. Today was also ST transfer/foot washing. We found out today that LAUREN IS PREGNANT. What a (to)day.

wouldn’t it be amazing

…if i eventually ended up in a nice neighborhood in the suburbs living down the street or a block or two away from julia, dahae, grace, and justin? ommmmmg and angela and stephmin and… there are too many people to name.

WHAT ABOUT ALL OF MANNA hahahahahaha

best baby-sitters ever

i can dream, can’t i?

on another note, i’m addicted to chris brown’s “with you” and “kiss kiss”

I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there’s hearts all over the world tonight
Said there’s hearts all over the world tonight

shawty lemme holla atchu
you so hot hot hot hot

escapism

I just discovered the song “Pocketful of Sunshine” by Natasha Bedingfield (through an online commercial!  whaddya know). I really like it, very catchy, upbeat.

But the lyrics are so escapist… I don’t agree with them at all. No matter how far you run away, where you go… I mean, you have to deal with yourself, and that’s one of the hardest things to do, confronting yourself. There’s no way to escape yourself. In the end, you have to face yourself… and God.

I’d rather not be taken away–even with all the dean’s date stress and crap… I like where I am.

“Pocketful of Sunshine” – Natasha Bedingfield

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it’s all mine.
Oh, oowhoaoh.

Do what you want, but you’re never gonna break me.
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.
Oh, oowhoaoh.

Take me away! A secret place!
A sweet escape! Take me away!

Take me away! To better days.
Take me away! A hiding place!

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it’s all mine.
Oh, oowhoaoh.

Do what you want, but you’re never gonna break me.
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.
Oh, oowhoaoh.

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it’s all mine.
Oh, oowhoaoh.

Wish that you could, but you ain’t gonna own me.
Do anything you can to control me.
Oh, oowhoaoh.

Take me away! A secret place!
A sweet escape! Take me away!

Take me away! To Better days!
Take me away! A hiding place!

There’s a place that I go,
But nobody knows.
Where the rivers flow,
And I call it home.

And there’s no more lies.
In the darkness, there’s light.
And nobody cries.
There’s only butterflies!

Take me away! A secret place!
A sweet escape! Take me away!

Take me away! To better days!
Take me away! A hiding place!

Take me away! A secret place!
A sweet escape! Take me away!

Take me away! To better days!
Take me away! A hiding place!

Take me away! A secret place!
To better days! Take me away!

Take me away! To better days!
Take me away! A hiding place!

The sun is on my side.
Take me for a ride.
I smile up to the sky.
I know I’ll be all right.

The sun is on my side.
Take me for a ride.
I smile up to the sky.
I know I’ll be all right.

new shoes

Work Focus Strategy #1

Dress up.

Currently wearing what Grace unnie calls a “date dress” and a pair of Nine West strappy heels I haven’t worn yet (but purchased for winter formals).

“New Shoes” – Paolo Nutini <3

Woke up cold one Tuesday
I’m looking tired and feeling quite sick
I felt like there was something missing in my day to day life
So I quickly opened the wardrobe
Pulled out some jeans and a T-Shirt that seemed clean
Topped it off with a pair of old shoes
That were ripped around the seams
And I thought these shoes just don’t suit me

[CHORUS]
Hey, I put some new shoes on
And suddenly everything is right
I said, hey, I put some new shoes on and everybody’s smiling
It’s so inviting
Oh, short on money
But long on time
Slowly strolling in the sweet sunshine
And I’m running late
And I don’t need an excuse
’cause I’m wearing my brand new shoes

Woke up late one Thursday
And I’m seeing stars as I’m rubbing my eyes
And I felt like there were two days missing
As I focused on the time
And I made my way to the kitchen
But I had to stop from the shock of what I found
A room full of all off my friends dancing round and round
And I thought hello new shoes
Bye bye them blues

[CHORUS]

Take me wandering through these streets
Where bright lights and angels meet
Stone to stone they take me on
I’m walking to the break of dawn [x2]

[CHORUS (x2)]

Take me wandering through these streets

On page 9 out of target 25. I’m getting sleepy… oh no.  Throat starting to hurt… it’s time for my knock-off CVS Dayquil meds.  -_-;;

I went to breakfast

I WENT TO BREAKFAST TODAY!

Do you know what that means?

That means that I either a) did not sleep, or b) slept very little.

Last night after the KASA meeting (OMG (you must sound it out) it was sooooo long… We’re undertaking yet ANOTHER super ambitious project. But that’s the KASA I love and adore.) Stella and Hyeree asked if I wanted to study with them, and I was so happy to hear the invite. So I went to the Whitman dining hall and I attempted to work. At around 2, 3ish I realized that I had a CEE assignment due in precept, so I did that… And some super annoying drunk guys came in… (man, obnoxiously drunk guys are insufferable. That’s a good word.) Stella slept in a booth.

I hope Hyeree’s not sick. :(

I LOVE STELLA AND HYEREE.  I REALLY REALLY DO.

I went to sleep at around 5:45am in the booth I was sitting in, and then woke up at 8am, stumbled to my room lugging all my humongo (thank you, joonmin) books back to my room (which I used half of, sort of) and then stumbled into the shower, stumbled to Colonial breakfast, was surprisingly awake during breakfast and CEE precept (I was really awake) and now I’m in Frist NOT working on my SOC presentation. Dumb decisions all around.

I’m meeting Mina unnie today in the city!!! She’s visiting briefly for some conference stuff, and today is her “free day.” So I’m going to hang out with her this afternoon. But that severely cuts into my one relatively free day of writing and stuff. And napping. Ohhh boy, is that going to be painful.

I do have five pages though. 5 out of 25, not too bad. And if I make the Protestant section long… and then the history of international and South Korean aid to North Korea… then there is less pressure to have a ton of research on actual aid for the draft, and it gives me a bit of leeway to do that AFTER the draft is due. This is totally doable.

I rediscovered Paolo Nutini last night. I really adore his songs. I was listening to “These Streets” when suddenly I heard a line that I hadn’t heard clearly before:

“and the stress that we were under wasn’t stress at all
just a run and a jump into a harmless fall”

That’s so true.

I whine a lot, but my lot is pretty amazing.  Thank You.

blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I’m found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I’ll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun’s shining down on me
When the world’s ‘all as it should be’
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there’s pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I’ll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

stuck in my head

“거짓말”

yea (love is pain) to all my brokenhearted-people (come again) one’s old a flame, scream my name
and i’m so sick of love songs, yea i hate dem love song, memento of ours,

verse1]
(거짓말)늦은 밤 비가 내려와 널 데려와 젖은 기억 끝에 뒤척여 나

너 없이 잘 살 수 있다고 다짐 해봐도 어쩔 수 없다고

못하는 술도 마시고 속타는 맘 밤새 채워봐도
싫어 너 없는 하루는 길어 빌어 제발 잊게 해달라고,, (거짓말이야)

너 없는 내겐 웃음이 보이지 않아 / 눈물조차 고이지 않아
더는 살고 싶지 않아,,

엿같애 열받게 니 생각에 돌아버릴것 같애

보고 싶은데 볼 수가 없데 모두 끝났데 I’ll be right there

chorus>
i’m so sorry but i love you 다 거짓말 / 이야 몰랐어 이제야 알았어 네가 필요해
i’m so sorry but i love you 날카로운 말 홧김에 나도 모르게 널 떠나보냈지만
i’m so sorry but i love you 다 거짓말 i’m so sorry(*2) but i love you(*2)
i’m so sorry but i love you 나를 떠나 천천히 잊어줄래 내가 아파할 수 있게

verse2]
그댈 위해서 불러왔던 내 모든 걸 다 바친 노래,, (아마 사람들은 모르겠죠)
난 혼자,, 그 아무도 아무도 몰래,, (그래 내가 했던 말은 거짓말)

홀로 남겨진 외톨이, 그 속에 헤메는 내 꼴이,

주머니 속에 꼬깃꼬깃, 접어둔 이별을 향한 쪽지, (hey)
(넌 어딧나요 널 부르는 습관도)
난 달라질래. 이젠 다 웃어넘길게.

chorus>
i’m so sorry but i love you 다 거짓말 /이야 / 몰랐어 이제야 알았어 네가 필요해
i’m so sorry but i love you 날카로운 말 홧김에 나도 모르게 널 떠나보냈지만
i’m so sorry but i love you 다 거짓말 i’m so sorry(*2) but i love you(*2)
i’m so sorry but i love you 나를 떠나 천천히 잊어줄래 내가 아파할 수 있게

oh oh oh oh oh 모든게 꿈이길 oh oh oh oh oh 이것밖에 안되는 나라서

bridge]

아직도 너를 못 잊어 아니 평생을 가도 죽어서까지도
내가 준 상처 아물었는지 미안해 아무것도 해준게 없는 나라서

chorus>
i’m so sorry but i love you 다 거짓말 / 이야 몰랐어 이제야 알았어 네가 필요해
i’m so sorry but i love you 날카로운 말 홧김에 나도 모르게 널 떠나보냈지만
i’m so sorry but i love you 다 거짓말 i’m so sorry(*2) but i love you(*2)
i’m so sorry but i love you 나를 떠나 천천히 잊어줄래 내가 아파할 수 있게

(http://www.metrolyrics.com/lie-441445166747568-lyrics-big-bang.html)