i still got it.

sometimes i need a little ego boost.  in the most minor of ways.

oh, my little eumin

HAHAHAHA

I haven’t checked the Clarion Ledger (the Jackson/metro paper) website in weeks… but while I was writing my take home (I finally started writing it) I decided to check it on a whim.  (By the way, if you get a chance, you should check out Marshall Ramsey’s political cartoons.  That man is a hoot.  (I met him in high school.  Great guy.)  He was nominated I believe twice for the Pulitzer Prize.)

I saw an article at the top about summer jobs for teens and how hard it is to find them, and my interest piqued, I ctrl+clicked it. I scrolled down to see what else there was… and SUDDENLY EUMIN’S NAME POPS UP.

WHAT?!

I clicked on the link/picture (same article) and my little sister is the opening and ending quoted teen.  She sounds so mature.  OHHH HOW PROUD I AM OF MY LITTLE SISTER.

“Job hunt tough this summer” – Eumin Lee won’t be one of the thousands of teens pounding the streets this summer looking for a job.

She’s all grown up.

realization

When I realize how out of touch I have been with those around me, with those I love, I shudder inside.

But you know what’s even worse?

Sometimes my pain comes from not knowing that I have not loved others like I should have, but from pride.

From PRIDE!

Oh God, please squish my heart into soft jello that melts so that I can love fluidly, love like You did.

Haha, terrible analogy.  :)  Even when I’m on the brink of tears, I’m such a goof.

Let’s try that again.

Oh God, soften my heart.  Break my heart for what breaks Yours.  I don’t know what to say, so I steal the words and breaths of others in order to try to give form and shape to something I don’t understand.  Where have I been?

I shudder at myself.

24 ‘For I will take you out of the nations; I will gather you from all the countries and bring you back into your own land. 25 I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse you from all your impurities and from all your idols. 26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. 27 And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. 28 You will live in the land I gave your forefathers; you will be my people, and I will be your God. 29 I will save you from all your uncleanness. I will call for the grain and make it plentiful and will not bring famine upon you. 30 I will increase the fruit of the trees and the crops of the field, so that you will no longer suffer disgrace among the nations because of famine. 31 Then you will remember your evil ways and wicked deeds, and you will loathe yourselves for your sins and detestable practices. 32 I want you to know that I am not doing this for your sake, declares the Sovereign LORD. Be ashamed and disgraced for your conduct, O house of Israel!

Ezekiel 36

I will have to come back and digest them properly.  Right now all I can think of is how wretched a faux servant I’ve been.

Give us clean hands
Give us pure hearts
Let us not lift our souls to another

Oh God, let us be
A generation that seeks
That seeks your face
O God of Jacob.

“Give Us Clean Hands”

wouldn’t it be amazing

…if i eventually ended up in a nice neighborhood in the suburbs living down the street or a block or two away from julia, dahae, grace, and justin? ommmmmg and angela and stephmin and… there are too many people to name.

WHAT ABOUT ALL OF MANNA hahahahahaha

best baby-sitters ever

i can dream, can’t i?

on another note, i’m addicted to chris brown’s “with you” and “kiss kiss”

I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there’s hearts all over the world tonight
Said there’s hearts all over the world tonight

shawty lemme holla atchu
you so hot hot hot hot

this is for you, kennyworm

TAYBERRY

haha

there is a perverse kind of pleasure of running in a sundress and heels while jping to the bathroom hoping to not run into anybody.  and succeeding.  but narrowly.

ooooo, living on the wild side.